ANOTHER YEAR
12:00:00 AM
ANOTHER YEAR.
It's crazy to see how much life has moved since my last birthday but also crazy to see how much is exactly the same. This year made me realize that, sometimes, getting older isn't such a bad thing after all. Yet - I realized that time isn't a friend of mine. It never forgives. Makes me wonder where I'll be a year from now.
Sometimes I feel like having my feet on the ground isn't what I want anymore. I used to want stability. I wanted structure. I wanted to know every single thing coming at me (I'd be lying if I said I don't think about it at all anymore...). Now, I'd rather have my head up in space; soul flying through the millions of galaxies without an ounce of care. I've learned to let life just be. I'm not in control; in the grand scheme of things anyways.
I'm waiting on the better. I'm waiting on the bigger. I'm seeing that maybe things come apart to be put back even better the next time -- that doors shut just to open again. I'm feeling the gratitude towards the people who have stuck around to see me grow; the ones who have helped me grow. I know it gets repetitive, but I can't thank you enough for seeing me through.
I'm waiting on the better. I'm waiting on the bigger. I'm seeing that maybe things come apart to be put back even better the next time -- that doors shut just to open again. I'm feeling the gratitude towards the people who have stuck around to see me grow; the ones who have helped me grow. I know it gets repetitive, but I can't thank you enough for seeing me through.
I woke up today. That's enough for me right now/tomorrow/for the rest of my time in this body. I'm dedicating this trip around the sun to brain-to-brains over sushi, staying young and going dancing. Come dance with me sometime..
x lj
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