late, late, as of late.
4:24:00 AMIt's kind of late -- I don't know what you'd expect from me at this point. My head's been stuck in some constant abyss of absolutely everything, (blessing or a curse, you can decide). I've been in and out of bad sleep for awhile now - months maybe, but more so, I've noticed the past 16 days have been the worst (or the best, even...). If I'm not wide eyed until 3 in the morning, I'm asleep and waking almost every hour.
Despite everything I just said that may have made you think that my life is an actual living nightmare, good doesn't fall very far. All the time I've spent awake is mostly used up on thinking and thinking and more thinking; probably a little over, but I don't always believe that is a bad thing. Thinking and writing go hand in hand - talking doesn't fall far behind. I like to talk. I like to think about something and talk about it with someone... then write about it. I think it's something that is built into a standard writer's mind; to write about everything, quite literally everything, to write in heavy detail. Detail is important - honesty and intricacy is everything; in thinking, talking and writing. Everybody talks, but do they know what they are actually saying?
This is what I need. I need the honesty and intricacy. I need to be surrounded by it. I want to be around people who feel the same, I want people who feel indifferent about what I do. I need the creatives; someone to bounce off of during the late nights/very early mornings. I want someone who thinks/talks/listens/writes/creates/is passionate with intricacy. Let's talk art, let's talk of the coming days, let's talk creative endeavours -- until we lose our voices. I'm down, just keep me company. Company isn't always a bad thing during these hours.
Now I don't take being up late at night as much of a bad thing as I used to. It only means I am awake... somewhat aware.. living.. still breathing.. a little tired-eyed, but alive. I dream, but now a lot more before I close my eyes. I think those are the ones that count the very most. I can control these ones.
Keep doing your thing;
all the right people, all the right plans will fall into place when you do so.
Ok, ok, ok. I think the sun is about to come up soon.
x lj
3/23/16
4:24 am
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