I'd like to think I learned a lot this year, as cliche as that may sound to start things off. I reached my motivational peak, I held more than I knew I was capable of carrying. I experienced and accomplished more than I ever thought I would in my lifetime, in 12 months. I ran through a couple health related scares and worries that kept me up at night and greeted me at my low. I've been in and out of clinics and spent the latter bit of the year waiting on x-rays, news, and good/bad results. I knew what it felt like to be let down. I knew what it felt like to be a let down. I lost some of the biggest parts of me. I mended a few.
As a little girl, I used to dream about becoming Miss Universe; you could ask anyone and they'd tell you. For my 16th birthday, one of my good friends even gave me a sash that had 'MISS UNIVERSE' printed on it - I'd be lying if I said it wasn't still hanging across the mirror in my bedroom to this day.
What drew me in was how confident and tall she was; how good of a heart she had - her sense of charity and good hospitality. It was how elegantly Miss Universe would grace the stage in the most amazing floor-length gown of sequins and flash a smile of the purest of pearls, eyes adorned with the most radiant of diamonds. I wished to be just like that, though I never grew up a pageant girl. What drew me in was beauty.
I think the definition of the word 'beauty' plays with almost everybody's mind at some point in life. Whether it be towards an art piece, a song, a person.. yourself.
I also think beauty is universal. Let me tell you why.
Stylistically speaking, I think the common thread among these ten tunes is the intricacy of the words behind them. Maybe my thought process can be a little romanticized at times, especially when it comes to how I interpret song lyrics; maybe I read into them too much. As someone who thoroughly enjoys discovering new music, I could easily spend hours on the internet going through artists' discographies. I love when people come to me with suggestions - it's my favourite thing. "Hey, I think you'll like this band" or "this song reminds me of you", will never get old.
That being said - here I present to you ten songs I wish were written about me. Imagine being a poet's muse; imagine being a songwriter's muse. No difference to me, really. You'd live forever.
1. TONIGHT YOU ARE MINE / THE TECHNICOLORS
"LET ME SLIP INSIDE YOUR ULTRAVIOLET DISGUISE. THE DAYLIGHT HOLDS YOU CLOSE, BUT TONIGHT YOU ARE MINE."
"LET ME SLIP INSIDE YOUR ULTRAVIOLET DISGUISE. THE DAYLIGHT HOLDS YOU CLOSE, BUT TONIGHT YOU ARE MINE."
I had a few words written in my notebook/planner this week as a self-reminder and it sparked a little inspiration.
"WRITE WRITE WRITE. This is a good week to do so. You'll want to remember."
It's basically that time of year again - I'm sure you know exactly what I mean; the frosted car windows, impossible mall parking lots, and my personal favourite - the season of Peppermint mochas. CHRISTMAS.
As a kid, every Christmas season, my parents would have me make a list of a few things I wanted from 'Santa'.. and I'd magically find them under the Christmas tree on Christmas morning. Still to this day, they ask me to make a list (not that I mind or anything..). Since December is quickly approaching, I thought I'd put together a little wishlist of things I could dig under my tree this holiday - whether they be reasonable or not (probably not).
SAINT LAURENT 'JANE' HEELS
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I've been wanting these Janes for the longest time. Skinny straps and heels do it for me. If I had my way - my entire shoe closet and closet in general would be Saint Laurent. |
These past couple months have had me in a slump, if we're being completely honest. My friends would know. I find myself over exhausted, overthinking, and unsatisfied. I can never pinpoint exactly what it is. The closest thing I can compare it to is longing for some sort of new joy + and excitement, a start of a new venture, but falling short of opportunities. It's like the world just gives way on you all of a sudden. Nothing goes right.
Things are disappointing, and even more so, people.
Things are disappointing, and even more so, people.
Well, it's that time of the month again where I give you a few tunes to check out - right? Yes it is. It doesn't seem like that long ago I gave an October one. Just straight up - I apologize for the lack of quality posts lately. My classes have been picking up this last month with non stop labs/tests/assignments. Education is one never ending ride..
R.I.P. 2 MY YOUTH / THE NEIGHBOURHOOD