A dose.
8:31:00 PM
I always feel these random spurs of inspiration at the weirdest times and sometimes I feel the need to share some with you.
It's exam season and things get hectic. You're going to have nights that will make you want to claw your (and other people's) eyes out, whether it be exam related or just in general. You're going to lose sleep. I'm already funneling through this cycle and right now, it feels like I'm falling straight to the bottom. Lately I've just been drained (and slacking off with my responsibilities, to be dead honest). Not as eased as I'd like to be, and of course, I've seen myself better. Life isn't going to the be the most flawless or easy; IT IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE. It's not guaranteed to go the way you want. What would we learn if everything was right? Though, sometimes I wish it was a perfect world.
The reality is I don't have everything put together. I can't see the
floor in my room. I'm still not unpacked from a trip I took almost a month
ago. I don't know why I try to give out some "wisdom". Even more so, I don't know why you guys listen to me. But in my greatest/least bit of attempt, I just want to get it out there that you can do anything you want to. Anything. It's all in your hands. If you want those grades, you work hard for them. If you want a certain position, you show them what you can do + all of your capabilities. In all honesty - I'm still struggling with my own, and believe me it's such a slow process that gets tiring and so discouraging. Tiring and discouraging because I have things I've wanted for a very long time that still haven't happened yet, even with my best effort. I want to intern for certain companies, I want to shoot with certain brands and I want to obviously stick to my guns and continue to do a lot more writing + fashion related/based ventures. My mom raised me with this goal oriented mindset - and I'd be absurd to think that everyone else has the same. In reality, a lot of people don't. All of the talents and abilities and potential and power some people are given but don't use make me so upset. Goals aren't made to be easy; and if they are, they aren't big enough. Defy the impossible and do what other people think you can't. I heard someone say recently: "you don't have to be excellent at everything, just do the best you can."
You. Do the best YOU can.
There can be so much good done with this life.
x lj
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