PHOTOS BY GLORIA WONG. What a weird year it's been, truly. I floated for the vast majority of it and can hardly remember anything. A friend described 2016 as seeing the "realest" version of myself, for the first time. And by "realest" i mean breakdowns on top of bad days and hardly any sleep and panic attacks, drowned into a cocktail of...
For someone who is big into fashion, I don't actually get out and shop as often as everyone thinks I do. I guess this mini 'haul' was partly made possible due to my friends working at these specific stores + giving me their discounts, hahah. Shoutout to Meg and Gloria for hooking it all up. ...
These were taken from around December 2015 - July 2016 and developed not too shortly after (I had totally forgotten to write an entry on them). A lot of these you've already seen on Instagram if you happen to follow me on there. Enjoy these just like I enjoyed taking them. A lot of photos of my friends and the city. I miss...
I just realized that it's been awhile since I've last shared what music has been on repeat for the past bit, let alone written on this thing, for that matter. I apologize once again! Life is pulling me in so many directions right now, I can hardly think/see/write straight. My playlist has been a little bit of everything lately - Usher to Marcy...
It's been awhile since I've written an honest update beyond what's happening in my mind/life on more than just a surface level. Mainly because I've been extremely caught up in the hustle and bustle of my daily schedule, that I have no time to elaborate any further than just narrating platonic events of my day. I hate that. I want the words I...
Between busy schedules, my pal Gloria and I found some time to shoot a few rolls of film. After grabbing a couple donuts at Cartem's (my favourite spot, by the way -- original donut plz), we shot around Main St. and at Bloedel Conservatory. Bloedel had exotic birds flying everywhere and it was legit a terrifying experience for someone who doesn't particularly like...
Yaaaasss! We've made it past September! Barely! Kind of! It's been a busy month, not too much to say really, but a lot of planning for the future. Growing up is strange. Midst the madness of September, I listed up a few favourite things. Kinda Drake-y. Kind of all over the place. DRAKE REVENGE HOODIE I look like a lost puppy LOL...
I know this entry is a little late and overdue, seeing as I've announced it elsewhere - but I'm extremely over the moon/excited/happy/ecstatic/etc. to be one of the newest writers for Unclear Magazine! Truthfully, it'd been a long time coming and the journey to being happy with where I am now as a writer had become a little disheartening. Writing for a collective/publication/magazine/amongst...
For the last week of freedom (aka summer vacation), we decided to take a plane ride and a road trip from home to California. The last time I recall being in California I remember leaving feeling extremely out of place and completely isolated from the city. This time around I felt a little more at ease and just content with everything. It's funny what...
I can't fathom how fast summer flew by. Well, technically it's still summer until the 21st, but the start of classes automatically marks the end in my books. The last two months have been such a blur. Headaches, caffeine and just plain longing. I don't feel like there was any 'winding down' to do at the end of summer because there was simply...
My interests fluctuate so frequently I can hardly keep up with myself sometimes (I'm about half joking, haha). I know the month isn't over just yet, but I figured I'd share a few of my favourites early -- for no reason. Just because! August reminds me of a lot of things and in short, is when I start to feel summer winding down....
Portland never fails to be weird - but don't be fooled. The word "weird" is never to be confused with negative connotation. But I swear to it, there is always something different in the water every single time I visit. Dancing juice/potions/spells/whatever. I'm sure that's what it was this time around because I quite literally could. not. stop. dancing. How it is possible...
I've never really known what it's like to get flowers from someone on a regular basis or even on those other useless Hallmark holidays. Valentine's Day was never anything I believed in or found appealing. I always grew my own roses anyways. In my garden, yes, but also in each and every crack and crevice between the pieces of broken pavement in my...
I'm never quite sure how to wrap my head around how you truly are. Maybe you're comparable to Mulholland at night -- only headlights and stopping for the nearest lookout. You are the beauty of LA without the cheap gimmicks and plastic surgery and whatever the hell else comes along with stereotypical California. You make me as dizzy as these winding roads; further...
I always enjoy trying on clothing that isn't mine. I absolutely love going through my friends' closets and finding little pieces I don't have in my own. The other day, I went over to my best friend's house and took my three favourite items of hers: a (faux) leather jacket, an oversized thrifted t-shirt, and some mustard brown pants. Helps having style savy...
In wake of recent events, my heart has been upstarted in my chest; my stomach constantly feeling churned out of anxiety. Why is this becoming a familiar feeling? It shouldn't be. The frustration brewing inside of me could never put all I have to say into words. I am left speechless, angry, tired - all of these things, but not defeated. I do...
A two month hiatus is long enough, right? Seemingly long enough to get a few things together (myself, included), set my priorities and to clear my mind a bit. Some would call it "writer's block" and I would be led to call it a "creative block", but I don't believe in that. Inspiration is everywhere and most days we are just blind; susceptible...
Crisis mode. I'm 100% positive that satan planned The 1975 and James Bay playing in the same city, on the same night. What a nightmare; I mean, how are you supposed to decide between the two -- especially when The 1975 just released a bombass record and James Bay is James Bay?! I had already seen The 1975 once in 2014 and the...
I have so much doubt in my system, it's unhealthy. Doubt about the future. Doubt with trust. Doubt in faith. Doubt about 'friendship'. Doubting other people. Doubt in myself. At the rate I've used the word 'doubt', I don't remember its true meaning anymore. I step back and ask myself if feeling this disconnected from everything/everyone is normal. It seems as if being...
Shot by Gloria Wong, clothing by Esthetic Supply. Feminism is such a touchy subject, especially when discussed on the internet. Things get taken out of context, words aren't articulated properly.. etc. It still is a bit nerve-wracking for me to type without the thought and fear of later having my foot in my mouth. However, by using social media as an open vocal...
Worn with 'WHIRL' lipliner from MAC I spent months and months searching various Sephora stores to find the coveted Kat Von D liquid lipstick -- 'LOLITA'. Trying to find a Lolita is like competing for the Hunger Games, where majority of the people end up getting defeated on the hunt - in this case because it is hardly ever in stock. It's so...
Midst an overly busy (crazy, and confusing) week, my partner in crime/business partner/boss lady of a friend and I had the opportunity to shoot some photos with the talented Gloria Wong, styled in Esthetic Supply. We asked Hana to style us in a few outfits from her store that she thought best represented us and naturally, I'll admit the difficulty of choosing clothing...
This video was something that pulled a chord somewhere in me that stayed long enough to linger for the entire week. Today marks the 1st year anniversary of the release of 'AMERICAN CANDY' by The Maine; I recall this song as being the first one to really catch my attention, it was the one song I immediately called a favourite -- upbeat, a...
It's kind of late -- I don't know what you'd expect from me at this point. My head's been stuck in some constant abyss of absolutely everything, (blessing or a curse, you can decide). I've been in and out of bad sleep for awhile now - months maybe, but more so, I've noticed the past 16 days have been the worst (or the...
My friend Hana runs a sick online store of curated vintage clothing [which you can check out here] and I copped this plaid cloak from her last year. And yes -- I am 100% aware I look like a pale, disturbed, 236 year old vampire that hasn't slept or seen sunlight for the entirety of my being. The outside world is strange to...
"Weird" is an understatement when I think about how time works and how fast it goes. My little blog is two years old today. As I've said previously -- progress with blogging comes along during the process. I wholeheartedly believe in organic art from a sincere place instead of manufactured garbage out of pure greed. I also believe in growing this blog out...
100 POSTS?! Are you kidding me? I'm in over my head with this thing. All jokes, I love writing on this blog and I'll continue to do so until my fingers fall off from typing. To commemorate my 100th post, I decided to compile 100 useless facts about myself - because, why not? Know me a little better. Go ahead. 1. No, it is...
Pursuing an education is probably one of the biggest things in my life right now. To even begin to describe the amount of pressure I feel is so difficult.. it would be an understatement to only measure it by saying "a lot". I'm sure some of you reading this have felt similarly at some point or can resonate with this whole idea of...
My eyes are heavy as I type to you. Scatterbrained at its finest, I think. The last few days have been pretty rough with a terrible dry cough trapped in my chest and a throat that feels like rocks, sandpaper, un-smoothed pavement and like someone dropped a cheese grater down it -- all at once. Sound rough? I've also resorted to breathing from...
Well - here's a break from all the personal entries of 2016, thus far! Lately I've been super into makeup and all about growing my product collection.. So I thought some of you might be interested in a little glam tutorial! I wish I had the time to beat my face like this everyday, if we're being honest here. Most mornings I just...
ANOTHER YEAR. It's crazy to see how much life has moved since my last birthday but also crazy to see how much is exactly the same. This year made me realize that, sometimes, getting older isn't such a bad thing after all. Yet - I realized that time isn't a friend of mine. It never forgives. Makes me wonder where I'll be a...
Other than writing for my own blog, I've always thought of doing a writing side project - but I never knew just what. I never had any direction/time or that clear of a head to carry the idea out. Likewise, Lily - who I met through a common interest of one of our favourite bands and this thing called Instagram, had the same...
Has it been awhile? Likely. January was the most hectic month I've experienced so far this year (haha, laugh with me, people) - but really, it's been busy, juggling classes/exams and other things along that line. So far, 2016 has brought me less sleep, insane dosages of caffeine, and documentary binges. The upside is that I've been writing almost habitually in an attempt...
